It's been a while, as usual. I always have so much to say but general laziness prevents me from saying it. Hard to believe where I was at in my life one year ago and where I am at today. Has that much all changed? In some ways, yes, in some ways no.
I thought I would have been done with my thesis by now but life got in the way. Someone came into life, for the reason I do not know, but perhaps to shake it up a bit and make me realize how stagnant my life has become. He has changed me, but have I changed him? And how much have I changed really? I am still working the same job, but I realize I cannot be here much longer and that I must finish what I started. Yet, a job does not define who I am as a person, it really is a means for me to sustain my way of life but what if this job, this life were to go away tomorrow? Then where would I be and who would I be?
Sometimes, I feel as if I am living a "false" life, that this is not the way it is supposed to be. I have made some poor choices and make no excuses for them, however, where do I go from here? This I do know, I have to finish my education because it seems as if I don't, then I will always wonder, what would have happened if I didn't finish it? So no more laziness, no more excuses, no more blaming someone else for I am the only person in control of my destiny. I cannot let someone else dictate to me who I should be and what I should be doing.
